16/06/2016 – Passion vs Ego

For the best part of the last 12 months I have simply been plodding along with no real interest in the sport at all. I didn’t watch any videos, wasn’t interested in Mr Olympia, my diet was about 60% right, my training wasn’t full on every session and I generally went to the gym on auto pilot for most of the time. In the last 2, maybe 3 months I have got my head back in the game and this is what leads me to this blog post and what I want to note down.

I’ve tried dieting or going flat out at the gym many times, even though I really didn’t want to do either. This is a set up to fail in all aspects of what I do. I found that when I tried to do something, yet I really didn’t want to, or didn’t really care about it, I always failed. However, when I set out to do something and I really want to, then I will succeed, this is where the passion comes into play.

For the last few weeks, I have tried to clean my diet up and drop the body fat. I WANT to do it and I am very passionate about doing so. Once I click and do it for passion, I step into a zone and I push harder in the gym and develop a type of eating disorder that programs my head into sticking to my diet without any issue at all.

I have been to kids parties, cooked a BBQ down my families and bought the kids all sorts of treats without even thinking about snacking on them. I wont even lick the knife after making them a sandwich or whatever. This is because I am passionate about my goal. It’s my goal, for me, with no stress, no competition, no outside reason, it’s just for me. As it’s just for me, I can only fail myself and I wont let that happen. I’m not completely dialled in with my diet, I still have my milk and so on, I just know what I’m doing.

In my opinion, too many people are doing it for reasons other than passion. They preach that they have knowledge or qualifications and yet they are crying that they cant eat such and such. If you really are doing it for passion then these snacks or whatever wont even pass your mind. When I fancy snacks, I know I’m not doing it through passion and I’m trying to force myself to do something I don’t want to do. Especially when I’m over 10% body fat.

The last 2 weeks I have set a diet and stuck to it 100%. It’s been no problem at all, as I have my goal in mind and I will conquer it through passion. I’m just carbing up now or refeeding and I wont touch a cheat meal as I’m eating for knowledge on my body and not for enjoyment. HOWEVER, I’m planning on having a few beer the weekend and socialise with a friend that I see only a couple of times a year. I’m certainly not putting this side of my life on hold, as it’s what life is. I’ve done all the bits that require me going out for a meal and taking tubs of food and all this for what? I’m only doing it for myself. I already know I can discipline myself if I really need to, I just don’t understand why I would need to right now. I know that I can get close to my competition condition within 2 weeks of diet if I need too, so I’d like to think I’m about 4-6 weeks from where I really would like to be. Just for the record, the first show I can think of doing is September, so that’s certainly not my goal for now.

So, passion is when I do something I do that feels right in the heart. I don’t crave for things and I always have 1 more rep in the gym. Ego is when you are trying to impress others and you really don’t want to be doing it, just because folk feel the need to prove something to others.

That’s my opinion on myself anyway and I do believe this. Always do it for you, challenge yourself, stuff everyone else…


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